I have been distracted and angry all day. I'm still so off that I can't actually write about why I'm angry without it turning into an essay probably too telling and far too long. And I'm due at something social in an hour, where I have to be not angry because I don't want to discuss it.

And then I call RBH and just want to see him. For how on/off I am about it sometimes, he's this center of stability in my life. I have to decide if next weekend is a go or not, even if it's for a very short time.

And then my gums ache a little and I wonder how bad the next surgeries will be.