Tuesday, February 26, 2008

[I use this for venting & sorting]

I come home chilled out after a power yoga class (headstand! With assistance getting up, but my first headstand) where I can see the effects are already happening and I'm only a week in to paddle-fit-2008. I even got back into the still meditation place, the one where I can feel my brain waves leveling out.

And within ten minutes she has me in a downward spiral when I walk in the door, her Lonely Planet open, her condescension, her self importance, her demand to be validated. She is an inherently negative, self punishing person. When I eat, she says she feels hungry but she denies the impulse. She complains about the cost of things I know she doesn't pay for, about how busy she is, about nothing.

I keep quiet. Try not to be provoked, try not to be led down the path. Is it inevitable?

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